My head is so full of ideas today I just want to spill them all as I know as of next week I will be busy working my ass off and won't probably jump on this for awhile. I want to re-visit my writing about songs that hold so much memory and that everytime I hear it, it gives me chills.
This song was dedicated to me back in 2006 on my trip back home to Indonesia, I was away for a month. I was never used to not hearing from him for more than a day so I have to admit it was difficult to be away from him.
We would still call each other almost every night, yet the more I speak to him for some reason the more angry I've become. I guess I was just frustrated for not being able to be with him and I felt as though he was coping fine without me. My insecurity got the better of me. It was until he played a song to me over the phone and expressed how he really felt being without me.
He played Fort Minor's "Where'd You Go". I was speechless. He was much more miserable than I was.
He was so passionately in love with me and I was petrified by it.
D.D.D this one is for you. I remember he asked me (after things ended) how I could just be so cold towards him and leave him cold turkey, he said I left him to suffer for a whole year before I even wanted to speak to him again, and how I wouldn't return his calls,msgs and emails. He never understood how I was able to do that to him. Truth is, I don't even know but I just did. I switched off and marched on. Without him.
We tried to be friends afterwards in 2008 or at least I tried by pouring my heart about another guy I was seeing, it was unbearable for him, but he thought he could stick it out so I would eventually see that he was the one for me, he always wanted more and I could never give him more. Once again, I had a love so precious yet I could never give him the love he deserves. It was another case of not the right love for me. He has met his true love now and I am extremely happy for him.
I thank him for all his lovely memories, there wasn't a day where I didn't feel loved by him. Was I foolish for letting him go? No. I was thankful to have him be a part of my rainbow life. I hope he knows I still have his painting and it decorates my apartment just like his love decorates my heart.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin' to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
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