Songs, Lyrics and Memories Pt 1

Music has always been a massive part of my life. I can honestly say I will die without music.

I was just laying on my bed when I remembered an old song, way back like either in 1999 or 2000. The song was by Vertical Horizon called "Best I Ever Had".

This song was given to me after I broke up with my xbf (in such a cruel manner I must add). Looking back, I don't know how I was able to be so mean and heartless, all I know is that now I'm paying the price for it. Karma really is a bitch.

I realized that back in the day, I used to be so mean to the people who loved me dearly, I don't know why I do that, I guess I take them for granted, I guess I can never understand why they keep taking a beating from my cruel words/acts. I keep taking their kindness for a ride!

One thing I do know for sure is that I could never love them the way they loved me. It pains me to admit it and I can say this because I have experienced it myself, where I was much more in love with the other person than he was with me. Or maybe it wasn't that, maybe it was simply I didn't love him the way he wanted me to, and you cannot argue with chemistry, it's either you have it or you lack it.

Now I have stopped doing that. Once I start dating a guy and I realized he was more into me than I was into him I let him go. He deserves someone who can give him the same kind of love. I hope one day I can find the one who loves me just as much as I do for him. That will create a beautiful relationship. We wouldn't need to seek elsewhere because we have each other and that is plenty!

I keep getting distracted, back to my point about the song "Best I Ever Had" by Vertical Horizon, my xbf said to me "Think of me when you listen to this song, I love you."

He wouldn't speak or see me after that. Who would have thought young love could be so painful to bear?

I just want to write down the sad lyrics:

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring


Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now


[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had


So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely


Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better


[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had


And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right


So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring


What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted


[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever