I have long forgotten the amazing therapy running can give me. It has officially been months since I've actually been on an evening run after work. This evening I took the initiative to taste the night air and let the wind chill blow my cheeks. Oh boy, did it feel liberating!!! Not only did I feel the need to run off my massive dinner and dessert but I felt that it got rid of all the headache I've been dealing with at work, all the pain I've had to endure, well basically it re-energized me and I came home tired but I felt like I've competed and won 2nd place. Not 1st place as traces of bad memories and heartache trailed behind which forced me to run faster, and at times I feel defeated so I'll let my bad memories take 1st place!
You cannot catch me so quickly, I've prepared myself this time
84 days of pain you caused comes trailing behind me, not far behind
I feel tired, not once did I look back, my heart beats faster, my hands are cold
It's amazing how darkness wants to take my spot, but I can run faster!
Beautiful song by the talented Adele.
Her lyrics are hauntingly beautiful.
"Don't You Remember"
When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,
I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,
But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,
When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,
But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,
But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,
Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,
Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,
Recent events have inspired me to write about how far a person is willing to go in pursuit of happiness.
Changes are inevitable in life, may that be with our surroundings or simply with ourselves.
What we found a sense of fulfillment 2 years ago may not be the case today. A job we might have found challenging 1 year ago may no longer be challenging. A partner in a relationship whom we seek comfort in 6 months ago may no longer be able to provide a sense of belongingness or comfort.
So, how do we react to these changes in life? In a variety of ways! Some are proactive, some reactive and some just bury it as changing means taking a risk which of course comes with the 'unknown' and some people fear of the 'unknown' more so than others and rather not take the leap to change. Whichever suits really..
Anyhow, I won't go into detail as to what being proactive and reactive looklike, I simply want to share a writing about a person's journey in discovering happiness and how each move the person makes affects the person surrounding him/her without the person even realizing the total effect of it.
I've acquired the taste of silence in my bed
All these sleepless nights I beg for answers
I said I control colors but I can't control red
All my days still cannot provide me answers
Why is she in tears? Who is there to blame?
Mother, Father, please don't look at me that way
Tell me am I supposed to kneel down in shame?
Mother, Father, do be kind and show me the way
I just want to keep on walking, I just want to try
She keeps following my steps so I decided to run
I want to keep my distance so I can say goodbye
She keeps on weeping so I whispered "I'm done"
Guilt stabs my heart with sadness and I let it win
Someone steal daylight from me it has done me harm
Everyone deserves a chance, so please let me win
Another smile, another shot of being a selfish charm
