I want to pretend

He showed up with dirty hands and a half assed grin

I wanted to tell him that a bit of sunlight wouldn't hurt

How dare he spell out L O V E when my heart is aching

My wishes usually come true but no, not this time around

I long for his tender touch, my God I want this to go away!

Traces of him don't belong, yet I can't seem to scrub if off

I told him to go away and return when I am no longer here

My heart wants to escape but I'm stuck missing him terribly

I closed my eyes but he is still standing on the corner of my eye

I asked him to leave me be but I lied and want him here with me

I pushed him away, his face disgusts me but why am I unable to cope

I want to go, I want to leave, I want to pretend that I can let him go