I am gone

It has been such a long time since I've been inspired to write, this is mainly due to the fact I've taken a new job and decided to ditch my usual 'scribble on a piece of paper' habit.

Finally, my brain has finally switched off work mode and switched on inspired mode.

Many past experiences of mine have made me Oh so sensitive and moody (I was also told that my mood swing is due to a Full Moon hovering over Melbourne in the last few days).

Isn't it just lovely playing the blame game?

"I'm moody cause i've got my period" is a classic blame game example. Yeah blame your hormones. I'm with ya! stupid cow.

I will dabble on my past experiences another time, it is past midnight now..I really should try to get some sleep...haven't had a 5 hour sleep in ages, let alone a proper sleep!

This writing is called 'I am gone' and it was written about 10 minutes ago. I was just thinking about moving on from my past relationships and guys I dated, and how deep down, I want to know if they still keep a bit of me with me as I do with them.

I want to know if I actually meant something to them or if I was just another forgettable girl.

Oh yes I think wayyy too much!!!

"I am gone"

I tried so hard to let memories of you slip away

yet you, and the stupid beautiful things you did kept crawling back

So I bang my head to the wall and let it bruise

At least it distracts me from thinking about you too much

Well aren't you lucky for having a prime time slot in my brain

It pains me to know you have moved on, no i'm not bitter

I guess you were stronger or perhaps you just never gave a damn

Wonder if thoughts of me cross your mind every now and then

I couldn't give you what you wanted, that much I know

At least we had some great moments, didn't we?

Well I am the one second guessing our relationship

It pains me to learn you found someone else, no i'm not bitter